Imagine Me Without You

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
'Til the end of time, forever
You're the only love I'll need
In my life, you're all that matters
In my eyes, the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you

Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day
I'd be afraid without you there to see me through
Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it's just impossible
Because of you
It's all brand new
My life is now worth while
I can't imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
Your love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard my calling
And you rushed to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you


When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you


I can't imagine me without you

Thanks, Dad

Buat karya-Mu dan sgala rencana-Mu
Ku bri syukur dan pujian bagi-Mu

Bri puji, bri syukur
S'bab kutahu Allah bekerja buat kebaikanku
B'ri puji, b'ri syukur
Ku yakin rahmatMu besertaku

Buat s'gala hal yang tak kumengerti
Dengan iman kusrahkan padaMu

For all the things that I don't understand, I wanna give thanks to You, Daddy. When I can't see clearly, I wanna trust Your heart in leading me walk thru this path.

Thank God!!

Yesterday, a class-teacher came to me and asked,"Miss, did you say something to X?"
"No. Why?"
"After the bell rang, I took them downstairs. X hadn't been picked up yet. So I told him to wait for his mom around Toga Mas corner and he might read there. But after some time, I heard Bu Pur called his name thru paging. I looked for him, and found him sitting in the corner of the classroom reading something. Can you guess what he was reading?"
I shook my head, and wondering.
"He was reading Bible!" She told me with an enthusiastic tone.
I almost couldn't believe what I'd just heard. X? Reading a Bible?
"What kind of Bible? The one with pictures in it?" I asked because I know he likes reading illustrated books.
"No. The regular one! He was reading Genesis!"
"Really? Woooow!"
I was so happy that I couldn't contain it. I was almost screaming and jumped! This X had made us didn't know what to do. He's a student with special needs.
"Let's hope that it'll last for good," she said.

I learnt that being a teacher isn't about teaching only, passing out knowledge, and being a role model. A teacher is someone who sows seed in every student's life. I may not see it grow and fruitful today, but surely I'll reap the fruits later on.

Those who wept as they went out carrying the seed will come back singing for joy, as they bring in the harvest.
Psalms 126.6

The Best Birthday Present Ever

I wanted to go to Bandung during Idul Fitri holiday, but because of no preparation before, I canceled it. My friends asked me to go to Solo with them from 23-26 Sept and I'd said okay. Another friend suggested me to have a mission trip for two days with my cell community. Can you imagine a two-days mission trip? It's impossible!! But, on the other hand I'd love to go with them. I arranged with a local church in Mojokerto, my hometown. I arranged on Sept 19-20, but couldn't.

To cut the story short, we could do the trip on 26-27 Sept! I had an argument with a friend who asked me to go with her to Solo. I was frustrated. But, it turned out to be okay. So, off we went to Mojokerto peacefully that Saturday.

Before we went, we had a deal to pray and fast from 23-25 (during holiday!!). Yet, so many things happened! 3 of my friends were sick, 1 had so many tasks, 1 had already went back work, the others were still not sure. But amazingly, they still prayed and fasted. 2 friends had never ministered before, but they courageously took the responsibility; other friends had never ministered in front of unknown people, yet they still did it. Still another friend must be a worship leader, yet he had no experience before..but he did it anyway. Another one, she rarely wears a skirt during ministry in our church, but in this local church, she had to. With their own ways, they paid the price.

I'm so happy and it was the best birthday present ever.

Bee Calm

These past few days I'm restless. Just because of one question from my friend, I lost my balance. So lost that I didn't know what to do or say. I felt uneasy and afraid. I told my Daddy everything I felt, gave it all to Him, but then I took it back. Gave it again, took it back AGAIN!

But in the midst of it, my heart kept on telling me," Be still, and know that I am God" (Diamlah dan ketahuilah, bahwa Akulah Allah!) But I couldn't be still. There was a tempest in my heart. I've spoken to some people, yet I couldn't find the answer I was looking for.

Last night my heart was calmer. And this morning, when I had my devotional time, I read Psalms 62.1-9. Those verses really spoke to me. So, I've made up my mind. I'll be still and know that He is the Lord of my life. I entrusted my future into His hands for He is my Daddy.