Your Love is Strong

I look out the window
The birds are composing
Not a note is out of tune
Or out of place



I look at the meadow
And stare at the flowers
Better dressed than any girl
On her wedding day



So why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need

Your love is strong

- Jon Foreman

(*stolen from this site)

String of (Strong) Hope and Help

Psalms 61.1-2 (GNB)
Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer!
In despair and far from home I call to you! Take me to a safe refuge

Psalms 61:1-2 (BBE)
To the chief music-maker. On a corded instrument. Of David. Let my cry come to you, O God; let your ears be open to my prayer.
From the end of the earth will I send up my cry to you, when my heart is overcome: take me to the rock which is over-high for me.

Psalms 61:1-2 (MSG)
A David psalm. God, listen to me shout, bend an ear to my prayer.
When I'm far from anywhere, down to my last gasp, I call out, "Guide me up High Rock Mountain!"

Psalms 61:1-2 (YLT)
To the Overseer, on stringed instruments. --By David. Hear, O God, my loud cry, attend to my prayer.
From the end of the land unto Thee I call, In the feebleness of my heart, Into a rock higher than I Thou dost lead me.

Months of Desperation

Bulan-bulan terakhir 2009 bener2 confusing, ada banyak hal yang aku g ngerti. salah satunya dalam hubungan ma org lain. Uda serahin k Tuhan, tp aku y tetep mikiri (manusia emang gitu kan biasanya. Diserahin k Tuhan, tapi troz mikiri). Akhir tahun aku mulai ngerasa lega karena satu persatu mulai jelas dan selesai.

Dream...mati suri di tahun 2009. G tw Tuhan mw.nya kaya apa. G jelas aku bener2 mw terusin pa g. G lakukan apa2 sama sekali. G planning blas!! Dan aku g tw aku mw kaya apa. Karena kalo bukan dream yg itu (bangun skolah untuk anak2 dari kalangan ekonomi lemah), aku juga g tw mw bkarya kaya apa.

2010....masalah dream uda jelas. Tuhan kasih kesegaran baru disitu dan Ia hidupin lagi mimpi itu. Uda g da masalah ttg ini. Aku uda mulai bikin blueprint-nya.

Kerjaan...aku jalani dengan antusias CUMA sampe ptengahan januari doang. Biz itu aku mulai ngomel2 g jelas dan sensi karena ttekan ma pekerjaanku. Aku tw sbg guru di skolah skrg ini, banyak banget tuntutan yg ada. Harus ini itu dsb.

Ceritanya, aku ditunjuk temenku untuk jadi sekretaris satu event (Mission Month). Uda lama g jadi sekretaris aku jd g tw mesti ngapain, tapi y uda aku kerjakan bagianku sebaik yg aku bisa.

Pada prosesnya, ada baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyak skali revisi di proposal. Proposal ini mulai dibuat akhir januari karena event mulai akhir februari, dan mmg kudu masuk yayasan dan di-approve sebulan sebelum event mulai. Nah, dengan baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyaknya revisi, otomatis proposal saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangat terlambat masuknya ke yayasan. Sampe detik aku tulis ini mungkin masih belum di-approve juga. Soalnya tadi pagi orang yayasan bilang ada yang g cocok!!!

Aku uda stres2 kena proposal yang mbuletisasi pol, murid2ku dengan BAIKnya menambah beban pikiranku (ya benere g gitu siy, cuma karena aku lagi stres aj makanya aku nulis gitu. Mana ada murid yg mw dimarahi gurunya? Ya kan?). Akibatnya...bisa diduga, aku jadi gampang marah ma mereka karena ekspektasiku ke mereka jadi g masuk akal.

JADI...lengkap sudah!!! Aku jenuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhh poooooooollllllll, ngomeeeeeeeeeeeellll mulu!!! Uda brusaha liat Tuhan dalam situasi ini, brusaha ngucap syukur. Tw g susahnya ngucap syukur dalam keadaan kaya gini? UUUUUUUhhh, kalo ngikuti kata hati...aku pengen kabur k pegunungan, nyepi, nenangin pikiran, balik2 masalah uda tuntas. Tapi mana bisa kaya gitu kan? IMpossible!!

Uda renungin Firman Tuhan, uda doa, uda confess Firman Tuhan, tapi tetep!!! Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaa...y pa niy?????

Hari ini aku mpe marahin diriku dw krn g brenti2 ngomel.

Daddyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, I need You desperately!!!!!! Tell me how to be calm. Teach me. I cant, I'm desperate, I think I'm on the brink of mental breakdown. Teach me how to trust You completely and calm myself so that I can givethanks to You.

So, readers...please pray for me. Desperately need it to get thru this... I cant wait for this upcoming school event to be held and done.

The True Joy

This is the secret of joy. We shall no longer strive for our own way; but commit ourselves, easily and simply, to God’s way, acquiesce in His will, and in so doing find our peace.
Evelyn Underhill

He (God) is glad when His face is mirrored in ours, and the rays from Him are reflected from us.
Alexander Maclaren

I got this from today's e-devotion (Inspired Faith). Hope it blesses you, as it blesses me :)

Forget?

"In case you forget who you are, turn to the people who love you. They'll remind you how beautiful you are"

That's right, plus don't forget to turn to the One who loves you unceasingly and unconditionally with an ultimate love :)

Because of your value in my eyes, you have been honoured, and loved by Me
Isaiah 43.4a (BBE)

For I am certain that nothing can separate us from His love: neither death nor life, neither angels nor other heavenly rulers or powers, neither the present nor the future, neither the world above nor the world below---there is nothing in all creation that will ever be able to separate us from the love of God which is ours through Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8.38-39 (GNB)