Up To You

"Everything I do is always wrong!!"

Fine! I won't say a thing to you anymore!
Live your life as you wish, I don't care!

Thank God I Found You

You see the real me
You heard me crying
You know how complicated I am
How fragile I am
How bad my temper is
Yet you still love me
You pray for me
Support me

Your love isn't just words
I thank God for you

Are you strong enough to support me
for the rest of our lifetime?
Aren't you get tired of it someday?

Honey, I love you.
I don't make a mistake,
I know it for sure,
This is not a mistake.

Songs of Praises

I Sam 16:23
And it came to pass, when the evil spirit from God was upon Saul, that David took an harp, and played with his hand: so Saul was refreshed, and was well, and the evil spirit departed from him.

How true it is! There's power in songs of praise. My mind stopped thinking of bad things when I turned on one of my spirit-lifter songs.

Mayday

Mayday..Mayday..This is Bee12 requesting for a help..Mayday...I'm heading to a very passive and unresponsive state about anything..Mayday...

The cruelest scenes I may do are spinning around and around
I'm unable to stop it

I'm not a tough girl
I'm weak and fragile

It's been a while
since our last meeting
and I don't see any improvements
AT ALL!!!!

What do you want?
Don't want me to care?
Granted!

Don't want me to fuss about your absence?
Granted!

I'll give you what you want.
Don't blame me if I don't care AT ALL about you!
Don't you dare!

Mayday...Mayday..Bee12 is in a bad situation..She collapses to a convenient zone..Mayday..Mayday...

What Did I Do?????

So suck when somebody blame you for something that you didn't do.

This morning, I experienced it. Last night, my brother came home bringing geckos in a box. He didn't bring the key, so I opened the door for him. I was in his room watching Japan-Paraguay. As I walked out his room, my foot stepped on a small house lizard!! EWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!! I never fond of house lizard. And when I saw him, he brought a box. I asked him what was it, and he said "Gecko". Automatically, I stayed away from him, and escaped to his room. (can you see the correlation?)

This morning, I asked him where he put the geckos, and he point to a place. Then, we went out to the patio, gathered with our parents, sister, and nephew. He went in first. As my sister went in, she screamed coz she saw him held a gecko in his hands. He got mad coz he didn't mean to scare her. He stormed to his bedroom. My nephew cried so hard, while his mum was numb...very shocked. I went into my bedroom and locked it. So much for a good morning.

Then, my sister apologized to him. And, unbelievably...he said," I was angry to what C deb said."

WHAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTT?????? Get real!!! What did I say? What did I do?

Holiday

After a looooooooooooooonnnnnnnngggggggg while... :) I'm back! Hopefully I can post something everyday. The problem is the slow connection of my internet provider :P
How r u, bloggers?

Anyway..I'm in school holiday. I can wake up late (very late) hahaha
I just finished my driving lesson (yeyyyy!!!) but I haven't had a driving license. I went to Bali with my parents and brother for 5 days. We went to Bedugul and stayed there only for a night. It was crazily very cold. Brrrrrrr!!!

Then spent 3 days at Kuta. I'm sunburnt!!! My face is red, but around my eyes is white (glasses). It was because I didn't put on my hat when we were at Tanah Lot. I thought it was cloudy :(

I got my nails decorated (i don't know the term) by a woman for Rp 10.000 at the last day at Kuta. NO, I didn't braid my hair nor tattoo my arm/ankle coz my skin is sensitive. I bought some bangles (I never had one).. which is so not me :)

Tough Lady also spent holiday there...too bad I couldn't meet her. But she met my brother :(

I met a friend also there. He helped my family found a place to stay at Kuta and tour-guided us :)

Well..for the rest of the holiday...I guess I must go to the police station to get my driving license.

Talking about driving lesson, LLL's li'l sister also has hers this holiday :) what a coincidence.