Beautiful Melody

Both sadness/ things make us upset and happiness make a beautiful melody in our lives (relationships).

The Way I Love You

Is there a clear way
to sense a love
Is there a simple way
to define love
Is there a secure way
to follow love
Is there the most right way
to just love you

See you smile,
Know you grow
find you shine
Hear you cheer,

and wish you
all the best
for your life
for your love

That's the way I love you

I will run
I will fly
I will hide
I will flee
I will do anything
to make this right
if I know the best way

See you smile,
Know you grow
find you shine
Hear you cheer,

and wish you
all the best
for your life
for your love

That's the way I love you

Am I clear enough
to sense a love
Am I simple enough
to define love
Am i secure enough
to follow love
Am I right enough
To just love you
(SweetP)

I Really...

want to be with you in the rain *(^~^)*

Stretched

Driven by her calling to be a counselor, my headmistress gave up her position and now she is the students’ counselor and the new coordinator of religion-character teachers. Every teacher must make a lesson plan every week, and it will be checked by a coordinator. Mine has been checked by my previous coordinator.

That Friday, I came to my new coordinator to sign a photocopy form. She said that she needed to see my lesson plan first before signing it. So, I printed all my approved lesson plans to her. To my surprise, she checked it again!! She asked me questions about it. For the first time after several years, I found a difficulty to adapt to a new way. What i had in mind at that time was: “My lesson plans had been approved, you don’t need to check again, just sign that form!!! “ I was so upset. In the end, she didn’t change a thing.

Right after that, I joined the school fellowship. Guess what! The worship leader asked us to give thanks to God. I wasn’t in the state to give thanks!! Earlier that morning, the devotion I had was about being honest to God and to me myself. So, I told God that I can’t offer Him a thanksgiving. I know that I had to offer Him a sacrifice of thanksgiving, but I just couldn’t. During worship I chatted with my best buddy, and he said that God is stretching me.

Then, the worship leader led us to sing a song by Sari Simorangkir:

Ku datang padaMu, membawa pujianku
Hanya kekuatan hadiratMu sanggup menjaga hatiku

Mendekat padaMu, ku mau sentuh hatiMu
Biar ku melihat kemuliaan yang Kausediakan bagiku

BagiMu pujian, hormat, kemuliaan
Kaulah kebanggaan di dalam hidupku
JanjiMu bersinar buktikan Kau besar
Tiada yang sepertiMu, Yesus Tuhanku

It was as if God Himself told me that I need to live in His presence always, coz only that which can guard my heart from wrong perceptions. And if my new coordinator was asking me questions and giving me suggestions to make my approved lesson plans better, so what? She’s my authority now, so she has every right to do that even if my previous coordinator had approved them. Besides, the lesson plans I made was not for me, but for God to work in the hearts of the third graders. Who knows by allowing that to happen can make the students understand better, and God touches their young hearts. I must not take pride in my lesson plans, but in God Himself.

I was talking about a gentle heart that week, and at the end of the week, I encountered God and He revealed that I still need to humble my heart and let Him mold my heart to make it gentle and more Christ-like. Yea, the Word of God is the two-edged sword. So, my students and I are being molded to have gentle hearts.

The last surprise was the speaker. He talked about stretching!! The verses was taken from Isaiah 54.2-3

Enlarge the place of thy tent, and let them stretch forth the curtains of thine habitations: spare not, lengthen thy cords, and strengthen thy stakes; for thou shalt break forth on the right hand and on the left; and thy seed shall inherit the Gentiles, and make the desolate cities to be inhabited.

Stretching is good, but I need to be ready. I must stretch my capability and live in His Words. Once the stretching is done, I’ll be able to make the desolate cities to be inhabited, presenting God’s Kingdom in my barren community so it’ll live again.

Francis of Assisi

Fransiscan Blessing

May God bless you with discomfort at easy answers, half truths, and superficial relationships, so that you may live deep within your heart. Amen.



May God bless you with anger at injustice, oppression, and exploitation of people, so that you may work for justice, freedom, and peace. Amen.



May God bless you with tears to shed for those who suffer from pain, rejection, starvation and war, so that you may reach out your hand to comfort them and to turn their pain into joy. Amen.


May God bless you with enough foolishness to believe that you can make a difference in this world; so that you can do what others claim cannot be done. Amen.


And the blessing of God, who Creates, Redeems and Sanctifies, be upon you and all you love and pray for this day, and forever more. Amen.

Prayer of St. Francis

Lord, make me an instrument of thy peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
And where there is sadness, joy.

O, Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
To be consoled, as to console,
To be understood, as to understand;
To be loved, as to love;
For it is in giving that we receive;
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
And it its in dying that we are born to eternal life.

It's A Beauty

Instead, just as the one who called you is holy, be holy in every aspect of your life. For it is written, "You must be holy, because I am holy."
(1 Peter 1.15-16)

This verse makes me think that being holy is compulsory. Holiness is one of God’s attributes, and I must have it, make it as a part of my life.

Tuhan, ku rindu masuk dalam hadiratMu
Jiwaku menanti, bawa ku mendekat kepadaMu
Dalam kemuliaan yang kudus

Kunanti Engkau, Allah Kuasa
Dalam kemuliaan yang kudus
Kusembah Engkau, Allah Kuasa
Dalam kemuliaan yang kudus

The Indonesian version of the song is often sung. Yet, I just knew the English version, and it startled me.

I will wait on You, Almighty God,
in the beauty of Your holiness
I will worship You, Almighty God
in the beauty of Your holiness

I never see God’s holiness as a beauty. It doesn’t even occur to me that His holiness is beautiful.

I like beautiful things so much. I love to take some time to stare at them. And certainly I’d like to have it (if it’s a useful thing), or at least take a picture of it (if it’s a scenery, or something I can’t take home). By having this new paradigm, that God’s holiness is a beauty, I believe I won’t see being holy is a burden anymore.

This is a hard topic. No one likes to talk about it, but I still want to, anyway. This topic can’t be avoided, we must face it. Well, at least me. I must accept that this is crucial for my following Jesus. To show that I love Him, I’d do anything that makes Him happy. When I love someone of course I want to make him happy even if it sacrifices my likings. The same thing applies to this holiness.

Holiness is not about moral only, but also every aspects of my life. Including speech (Women usually like to gossip around, whereas men usually like to curse). Find it hard? Let’s give a try to see holiness as a beauty, and then we’ll see! Let’s fall in love (or grow in love) with Jesus, and we’ll see!

When God is Silent

Doesn’t mean that He’s not there,
Doesn’t mean that He doesn’t love me either,
Nor that He’s busy doing something.

In fact, He’s always with me
Coz He cares and loves me so much
That He gave up His only Son.

He sits next to me,
Hug me to comfort my disturbed soul.
He doesn’t need to say anything yet.

Then, I’ll hear Him whispers,
And I listen what He says
Coz I’m close to Him.
No distance between us.

Betrothed

For I am zealous for you with zeal of God, for I did betroth you to one husband, a pure virgin, to present to Christ
(2 Corinthians 11.2-YLT)

Bodyguard

YOU

Consume me
burn me
with a longing
for Your presence



Cover me
embrace me
with Your presence
that calms me

Touch me
with Your hand
which brings me
strength and victory

Drown

Not enough...
Never enough
if it's only
ankles depth

When it's
knees depth
I still can't
get enough of You

Drown me
Drown me
in the river of Your presence

Drown me
Drown me
where there's only You
all around me

Drown me
Drown me
never get enough of You

Drown me
Drown me
deep into Your presence

What Do You Think?

Aku iseng-iseng ketik namaku di sini dan inilah hasilnya... What do you think? Am I like what it says?

You Are Influential and Skilled
You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

I'm NOT Falling in Love

I'm growing in love :D

I'm Back!!!

Our God is a God that follows. Have you felt His presence through the kindness of a stranger? Through a word well spoken, or a touch well timed, have you sensed Him?
He uses all His power to convince me that He is who He is, and He can be trusted to lead me home.
(Max Lucado)

Yes, He follows me wherever I go, on every turn of the road, down the valley, up the mountain, even off road. I know He can be trusted to lead me to the fulfillment of my dream.

January 10, 2010 once more He convinced me of my dream (yang lagi mati suri) through my pastor. I was left speechless at His amazing way of bringing me back on track after 6 months going off road. The dream He gives is to build a generation that fears the Lord and living in His Kingdom’s principles by building a good school for the dont-haves.

That night, as I thought about it, I couldn’t stop crying and all I could say was “Thank You”. He amazed me once more. This year is going to be a great year of walking with Him in faith, in line with the verse I got at Christmas:

Happy are those who follow his commands, who obey him with all their heart. They never do wrong; they walk in the LORD's ways.
Psalms 119.2-3
(Good News Bible)

To live according to His law, following His commands and obeying Him, I’m going to need Him everywhere I go. To be such a person, to have that kind of dream, the world might see me cynically and pessimistically. Thank God, He surrounds me with His presence that arising boldness within me to face whatever comes my way.

And yesterday morning, the verse for the day was taken from my favorite Psalms, that’s Psalms 139. It says that He follows me and I can never avoid His Spirit. He works through anything for my sake, to draw me close to Him, to give me strength day by day. To achieve the dream, I can’t rely on my strength or I’ll fail. I need Him, so it’s wonderfully awesome if He follows me everywhere I go.

His hand is upon me, He’s all around me on every side. His power protects me, and so does His anointing. If so, what should I worry or fear about? It’ll be ridiculous to worry and fear after knowing that God of the universe is with me. Whatever I need is being provided abundantly! Amen!! ^^

It's Your Birthday :)

Dear Cousin Jo,
If you happen to see this post and would like to see where I got the elements for the card, go here and download them for free :)

Btw, I don't have the recent photograph of you. That's why I use that photo :)

And once again... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

What Matters The Most

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven
(Ecclesiastes 3.1)

Remember now thy Creator in the days of thy youth, while the evil days come not, nor the years draw nigh, when thou shalt say, I have no pleasure in them
(Ecclesiastes 12.1)

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I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live
Deuteronomy 30.19

Never Enough

The fact that You're an amazing Daddy makes me glad and say ...



but soon I find out that ...



You are awesome and wonderful, Dad :D and no words can ever describe my gratitude to You.

But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.
I Corinthians 2.9