Broken Heart

Dad, last night I finished reading "I Kissed Dating Goodbye". For years I have these doubts and fears about my future husband, and You know that all along.

When my weaknesses
are exposed,
would you stand by me
and love me anyway?

When the seasons of life
leave their marks on me,
would you stand by me
and love me anyway?

When time takes away
my strength and beauty,
would you stand by me
and love me anyway?

Do you love me
by sight or
do you love me
for my true self?

As I look back, I realize that I was looking for the perfect man coz I'm afraid of failure. I can clearly see now that the trauma is still there. Please heal me completely so that I can be whole in You and able to love him with Your love.

I've to be honest with myself (and it's not easy) that my doubts and fears show that I'm "the center of the universe". That's why I ask You to heal my heart. I wanna let You be the center, Dad, from now on and think of him by asking these questions to myself (instead of asking myself the doubts above):

Am I the right person for him?
Can I be the best partner and best friend for him?
Will I be able to help and support him reaching the dream You've put in his heart?

You are the Physician, Dad.

He heals the brokenhearted
and binds up their wounds.

Psalm 147:3